Chivalry Noted

The sky opens above my head,
pools of baby blue, triangles of dark hope
mixed in the wind.

The clouds do a dance,
trying to flow to earth
without the help of rain.

No storm as yet.
The sky wants to come down in the light!
Make it on their own.

In this realm I disappear.
You are there with stars in your hair;
you are the sun and the moon intertwined
in a sky of golden hope.

You meet me there!
Your smile is the only light I need
to find my way home.

My lady in red,
my breath after the rain!

The music softly plays.
We are left standing.
The dance goes on without us!

We speak of light like it comes from the dark,
as if dreams are life, and belief is water.
We drink bottles of sunshine
and we don't age when we stand together.

I chase your eyes with mine.
all motion slows!
You look up and see
a single tear coming down.

Did you feel free standing beside me?
Did your fears catch up to you even here?

I look around and ask you to dance.
You sigh,
your eyes moist and wide.
Brightness from your face flows to mine.
My knees get weak.

You look past me at the other dancers
with the pretty dresses on.
you point towards them like they are the answer.

You say to me in a velvet voice,
shivering with cold mistrust of self,
"Chivalry noted."

I can never argue with your pantomimes!

I long to leave with you,
for green tea and gumdrops
to dance and have a picnic on the roof tops.
I want to stay in your light!

You turn and I leave
for a dance I did not want.

You are a sweet mid-night's dream
and I am a man who cannot sleep!

The City of Change

So as many of you know I went to LA for WOW JAM. It was an experience of a life time. I can not really express what it has done for my life. I must say it was one of the most important things I have ever done, I am writing the whole thing down in my journal and will post it online when it is completed but ever since I returned I have felt the need to write about the feeling attatched to the experience.
It was like falling in love. But the most intense and breaking love I have ever experienced. I kneeled before God and wept and poured out everything before we did a single wow jam. It was not an emotional service that did this to me. I do not recall what that first session speaker said. All I knew is that I was at the front letting everything go. My whole life go, everything to the Lord. If I could choose a theme for the time spent in LA it would be that "Everything to the Lord"
The growth in me is huge. I learned what prayer should be. I learned that I am no less of a man to cry. The tears flow much easier now since that sencond night in LA. I learned how intense love can be, how frantic.
I prayed for people out loud. Strangers! I prayed with the authority of Jesus Christ. I prayed with belief. I prayed for healing, I prayed for protection. I prayed for lives broken. I prayed in silence for me team. I prayed with tears in my eyes. I have always prayed silently for people, for friends and family, but never with the intensity I do now. My team said they can see a difference in my look when I am praying for them, though they did not I was in prayer they said I gave them weird looks. I was not aware of it, but it makes sense for at times I was almost at tears with the intesity of my silent prayers. Since wow jam I have prayed for perfect strangers, I have prayed for my co-workers. I pray almost all day. I take a bible with me to work and read it and cry. People look at me and wonder and smile. They see a man reading a small bible and crying and it warms their hearts. I am a true bible thumper now. And I don't care and people know me at work and see the change in me.
Wow Jam jas given me more boldness in my faith.
I feel a great need to go out and tell people about Jesus. A deep love for people. An intense yearning to go out with nothing more than a Bible and a backpack and tell others about Jesus. On my way home I had a stop over in Vancouver. All I had was a backpack and a pillow. I stepped out of the air port ready to to just walk away from everything in my life and just hitchhike around telling people about God. I stopped half a block away and returned to the air port and prayed knees down for half an hour until my flight arrived.
I love more fully! I love my friends and family with a insane about of affection. If they allowed me I would be hugging them every ten minutes and giving the kisses on the cheeks. Though they don't (so barely let me hug them) In LA I hugged children with no shoes, shook hands with men with warts copering there hands. Hugged people who smell like urine. After skid row my hands smelt like a toilet. But I was smiling, they knew Christ because I of the love I showed. So if I am a bit intense with my hugs and words of affirmation forgive me, because it will most likely get worse. I have lost to many people to not give a proper hug goodbye and I want the people I love to know they are loved.
In LA I saw a thousand some people come to Christ, I saw a dozen or so people healed. A man cured of cancer, a women walking after years in a wheel chair. I cried with hundreds of people hearing about a young boy who lost his mother to cancer the day before he came to wow jam and excepted Christ. I held hands, I hugged and I prayed for the people of LA. I gained and love and passion I never felt before. I have an urgency that never leaves me.
I am still very much broken, I still have huge personal problems to overcome. WOW JAM did not kill my insecurities or problems but it awoke something in me. I may not be here much longer but I want to spend these last days the way I spent my days in LA. Loving people the way Christ loved us.
I love you all. And I hope to hear your voices and see your faces soon.
Raise your Hand! And repeat after me
I-AM- SPECIAL- BECAUSE- GOD - MADE - ME!
Stay Gold
Byron Frank